theenigmaStammering is like typing a beautiful worded letter, full of feeling and expression, but when you print it out, it is totally changed.

The words are different, scrambled as if by an enigma machine - and only you know the code.

People follow the fragments of the text, but the essense, the wholeness has gone - broken up by hesitations, blocks, mumbles and deafoning pauses.Some days my speech is a one round fight and I win.

Other days, its a longer contest. I feel like Im winning but its hard, tiring, scarey and it always leaves me bruised and fatigued.


Terry McElhinney


Published in Voice Catcher, An Anthology (2008)